So many Sarahs but this is Seriously Sarah

So I finally got DA2 like last weekend and every night, I’ve been going to Kirkwall to do my missions.

AT FIRST, I was like, Oh. Okay. Carver died. You died a good death, you protected mother. That’s cool.

And then Wesley got infected and I was “Aveline, I don’t even know you but you look like a girl who’s serious and stuff. You should make your own decision with your husband”. I was going to be cool about it cause I don’t even know these people y’all. So she killed him and I was, “Yeah ok. Whatever, we NEED to escape now”.

So we did.

AND THEN, time went on and I was best pals with Aveline, she’s a nice girl and all and I met Varric, Anders, Fenris and Merrill. I couldn’t get Isabela due to a stupid glitch so I’m so getting her on the next round of play.

THEN I was going to the Deep Roads and mother was saying, “Bethany! Stay here with meeeeeee cause like, you’re an apostate and stuff. I know Marian’s such a fighter but you should stay and be my precious girl cause you need to be protected AND THERE ARE PROBABLY MONSTERS THERE”.

And Bethany’s like, “Chill mom. I can handle this. Imma go with my sis cause she’ll protect me and I’ll protect her. I don’t wanna stay and get caught by the Templars here while she’s away”.

And Mama Hawke was all, “Noooooooo” but whatever, she’d be safe here with her brother Gamlen and all. He looks out for her even if he’s a jerk. I want my sister with me and I’ve always had her in my team cause you know, she IS my sister.

I like to horrify her by bringing her around to the brothel and she goes all, “Marian! Could you not go here with me around?” FOR SERIOUS and the rest of the party has that “Really Hawke? Really?” look when I finish my session.

ANYWHO! TO THE DEEP ROADS I GO! A mission with dwarves to go on an expedition to get MONIES FOR MAMA. I want her to have a lovely life back at the old mansion that was bought over by other people.

My party included Fenris, Varric, Bethany.

So.

We fought the demons, the monsters. We neared the exit when we escaped from the dungeon thing and then Bethany stops and tells me she needs a break while we were searching for an exit.

And… And she breaks down and I go to her and go “NOOO! BETH, BETH?” AND SHE IS INFECTED FROM THE DEMONS. And noo, noooooooo. Not my sister! I LOST CARVER AND NOW YOU? I promised Beth I’ll take care of mother and then I killed her cause she wanted me to before she turned into an Abomination.

BETHANYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

I escaped the dungeon (thraig) with the rest and got home with plenty of monies.

But with no sister.

ALL THE MONIES IN THE WORLD IS NOT WORTH IT FOR YOU DEAR SISTER. WHYYYYYYYYYYY.

I had to tell mother about it, all serious like. I’ve always been the joker of the party with snarky wittisms and stuff but no, with mother I tell it how it is. She cried of course but there was nothing else I could do. At least… I got the mansion back?

More missions and stuff and then last night.

I had been questioning mother who the guy she liked is but she didn’t reveal it to me. Uncle Gamlen went up to the mansion and when I went home he asked me if mother was ill or something since she always visited him once a week at his place.

He told me more stuff and I was, “No. OH NO” for it sounded like the clues to the murders that I had been investigating earlier on. I thought IT WAS OVER. I ran all over town searching for mother, Uncle Gamlen went home just in case I was wrong and she DID return. I followed a fresh trail of blood and panicking while saying, “There’s so much blood! I hope I’m not too late!”.

I brought Aveline with me, Anders and Fenris. We went to the Foundry, to the hidden basement and all, fighting demons and shades and then I found her…

The serial killer had been killing all the girls to match and piece up a woman that he had lost. Mother was there, mother was not mother any more.

I killed him.

Then I went to mother while the rest of my party looked on silently, not knowing what to say as I cradled her. She told me that she’d join father, Carver and Bethany and that I’d be oh so alone. I told her not to worry, I’ll be okay! But mother is mother and she knows that even when I joke, I AM SUCH A LIAR TO HER. But she is proud of me and all.

She died.

I left.

Aveline told me to talk to her when I’m ready cause she knows me and I went home and told Uncle. We’re all upset and all. I wanted to just lounge around in my bed and not go out for missions. WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL? I went to Kirkwall for mother! FOR MY FAMILY to start a new life after escaping the Blight!

NOW I AM ALONE.

I decided to visit Aveline cause that’s better than moping about so I went to her office at the barracks. She’s guard captain after all. Aveline, my pal. She was glad I talked to her and even though I said that “Well, I’m smiling, that’s enough for everyone isn’t it?”, she gave me a disapproving frown and tells me that she knows I’m not okay.

I could have been snarky to her but there wasn’t any effort to feel like it when she wanted to tell me about her father. She did cheer me up a little and we had a little toast to all those we had lost. Alright. I wasn’t in the mood for going on missions yet but Anders wanted to see me so I went to his underground clinic.

FEELING VULNERABLE even though I have such a tough joking exterior to others, I went to him. And… And HOW DO I RESIST ANDERS? He let me in, admitted that he liked me, that he’s trying to resist temptation for he might lose control to Justice, the spirit within him and that even though he heals everyone, he could still hurt me and HOW COULD I NOT RESIST HIS RESTRAINT?

He tries all that for me, I looked at him and said two words.

“Kiss me”.

And he did.

And everything was beautiful. AND I AM NOT ALONE. I AM NEVER ALONE if I have all my friends, like Aveline said, I’ll move on when I want to. Not when everyone else wants me to, only when I want to.

I want to move on now.

And let’s get on with our next mission.